Greetings and Welcome to my Blog

Greetings All.
Welcome to Giri Gritzi's blog about her life in a little place called Second-Life. Giri's second life is at times boring, at times very exciting, and unfortunately at times very very hurtful. In the upcoming and continuing posts she hopes to chronicle her life and experiences in her second-life

Giri Gritzi

Giri Gritzi
Giri Gritzi

Just a Word about Second Life

Second Life is a FICTIONAL World that is inhabited by REAL people who come here to escape their First Life.. With that said, what happens in Second Life should at no time ever be considered something at is happening in First Life. While Second Life IS a fictional world composed entirely of photons, bits, bytes and keyboards, it does also contain a few real items. I have found that Second Life contains 3 items that come in from First Life, and are the most fragile, yet important parts of any Avatar and the person whom is behind the keyboard for that Avatar. What I am speaking about are Feelings, Xxxxxxxxxx, and emotions

Friday, December 14, 2007

Day Three Report on L-1107 (Laura)

(These daily reports have intentionally left in the Banished ones own words, so everyone will truly know who wrote it, and whos thoughts they are...)

Day 3

This day has not been that easy as day 1 and 2.. I realy do enjoy been locked and isolated in this way .. but iam feeling that iam doing somethig wrong, I think i did hurt someone.. and that bugs me alot ..

iam doing ok, just did hope that i dident feel this way .. but i did realize something last nigth, all the small things like mouselock and the leash... Mistress did leash me and that did make me feel much closer and less than an outsider that L-1107 is , That nigth i realy wanted to stay longer but RL and my bed was calling for me..

well dont have so mutch on my mind today ..just hope that iam not pushing my friends away doing this..

Thursday, December 13, 2007

To Bane or not to be - Blogpost by a family member

To bane or not to be - Blogpost by a family member

WHAT IS THIS THING?!!! Being bane! What is this immense madness that has descended upon us. Banishment! Being banished. To choose isolation in a world where interaction is the goal would at a first glance seem to be counterproductive. Interaction is what makes us log onto Second Life instead of watching TV. We thrive for building networks... We live our "second life" to interact!

Having family members who - with no prior notice - went "bane" initially made me boil with frustration. Then fume with anger. And finally today cold acceptance. I reckon that these feelings are mostly fuelled by my own selfishness.

Frustration. - why oh why? I felt deprived of something precious. And something that makes me log on each day. Learning the terms and length of the sentences, it seems almost impossible to live through. Disbelief and agony. To have to look at - and be in the presence of - two of the persons I care for and love ... And not be able to be with them as my equals.

Anger - I want this person to deal with ME! - not to hover about on a cloud. Like a ghost! Who are they to choose to do without me! Without anyone for that sake. Why did I not have a say in this?... Gaaa. How could they? How could they be so .... selfish? How can I be so selfish to crave them to be present?

Acceptance - life goes on At terms with initial responses. Long way to go and no need sulking. And sooner or later, they will need someone to be there for them. That someone will be I. They chose to go bane - so be it. Mistress is not letting them off the hook, that thing is certain, so best make the best of it

To answer the opening question of this entry "what is this thing?", we need to go way back. Through history, people have for some reason or the other chosen to voluntarily live in celibacy and isolation. Sarah MacDonald describes in the book "Holy cow - an Indian adventure" a stay at a buddhist monastery (chapter 5 - suitingly titled "Insane in the membrane"). Ten days straight, talking prohibited. She describes this treatment in the very first line of the chapter as a "brain enema".

Later she somewhat gives a reason for submitting to this: After handing in my passport, my diary, my book and my pens, I'm giving the only thing I can read for ten days: the rulebook and schedule. Over the next week I'll study the pamphlet as much as the princess in "Still Life with Woodpecker" contemplates the Camel cigarette packet. Yet it won't speak to me in the same way - I won't see alien life forms, or secret messages, just a way of life I never thought I'd embrace

.... just a way of life I thought I'd never embrace.

As with a short time in a monastery, so is bane'ing. something SO far away from real life - as it possibly can be. Though a stay at the monastery is submission to a discipline self imposed at each time, banishment is submission to an externally imposed physical and social discipline. Whether it is self-ordered or no is irrelevant. It is imposed either by the dogma that is a monastery or an irremovable suit.

A hot topic right now is "augmented reality", to mix human interaction with computer generated data - a scientific term for cyborgism. We add our personality to an avatar and encode it with a computer. We send all of this through a network of servers and it is all decoded by a computer and ultimately by the person in the other end. Vice versa, we receive other avatars' encoded personalities which we decode. The computer is a blurring filter to our "selves" through this complex system of codings and decodings.

Everytime there is a coding/decoding lies the possibility of a data loss. And when a lot of what is communicated are feelings that can be hard enough to express in the real world, we are inheritly born handicapped in this our "Second Life".

Well - I guess banes are on the pinnacle of this augmental revolution, selectively abandoning substantial liberties given by technology. Choosing to go handicapped in a handicapped world.

- This rest is silence.

(No need to sign this - those who need to know knows. )

Day Two Report on L-1107 (Laura)

Well the second day of L-1107's ordeal has passed, she is a delight to monitor, but I can se the isolation beginning to work on her. L-1107 was once a very verbal speaking pet, (L-1107 before being isolated was openly shy, but with those she trusted, not very shy at all), I can see her starting to withdraw and reflecting on her own thoughts. She has quickly learned to convey thoughts with extremely simple physical action emotes. (When she first became isolated, she was one of a vast number of Residents that didnt even know how to emote.) While the emotes have given her a tiny ability to be seen and maybe understood, its a vast difference from what she was before being submerged into her own walking prison of isolation.

I'll keep you updated

(These daily reports have intentionally left in the Banished ones own words, so everyone will truly know who wrote it, and whos thoughts they are...)

Day 2

This day did start real good, when L-1107 did wake up at her station this mornig , she got an present from Mistress, an gasmask this mask can be werry evil If mistress want it to be .. and L1107 has no control over the mask well she has no control at all atm..

the day has been good sofar, its quied and no stress at all that i love whit isolation,but thehard part will be looking at my werry good friends having fun at the sideline , i dont think that is an thing i will get used too, but then again think thats is allabout isolation ... Why iam doing this have been suby , and iam still feeling werry suby .. but i have been thinking a litle iam been selfish too ? her iam locked and blocked form the outworld .. me and one of my werry best friends here in sl have been planing an RP for weeks and we did have an exelent time togetter, and igo and trur myself in to an object , wit out telling her or anyone els about it Just me and Mistress , So iam sorry for that ... but at that time it did feel so rigth todo this ..

One day i will be back as laura and then we will catch up for lost time , but for now i have to fihinih what i did start .

and the last thing Been isolated is still wird and iam doing mutch better than i did think ..

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Day One Report on L-1107 (Laura)

When I secured and locked L-1107 into her isolation suit today, I felt a pinge of envy, and fear. I know it will be hard on her, and in turn on me. I know she will feel isolated, and then she will begin to cling to any contact she can get. That means me, her controller, her only remaining link with anything/anyone that is not in her own head. It will be my job to both make sure she gets the full experiece that she is expecting and to monitor her and be sure she doesnt go over the edge because of the experience.

These words are taken straight from Laura..........

(These daily reports have intentionally left in the Banished ones own words, so everyone will truly know who wrote it, and whos thoughts they are...)

Day 1

Today was the day Laura poffed away .. and an object whit an ID number L-1107 was rezed , The rezing prosess was scary , but fun at the same time.. I feel werry safe Mistress Giri so i dont worry about what will happend i know iam in werry good hands.

This is the first day for L-1107, i will try to be OOC now, will not rp this diary.. A few days ago i did ask mistress if she wanted to turn me in to an Latex pet, i did it because i have been feeling werry submisive in rl and sl.. and for the last mounts in sl my role has been werry doming so i think this will help me a little to be a better Pet and an better switch, cant not explane why so i willnot trye to..

well how was my fist day as the object L-1107.. Its wird but iam enjoing myself atm but the hardest part today was been ingored by an werry good friend, that did make me sad in the begining but think that is one of the things i have to larn to live whit .. i did never think this was going to be easy, and that is the onely thing iam sure about atm .. but iam doing well .. have no idea what will happend in the future dont wanna know that anyway ..

Giri on being Bane

A lot of people want to try to be a BANE, myself included. However, as controller of L-1107 I can easily see how it is affecting her, it is changing her, it is hard. She has been struggling with this for the last several days and I have seen the degradation of her personality as it has happened. If you do think you want to go and be a Isolated Banished person, I strongly and deeply implore you to reconsider, it is a very hard and difficult thing when done correctly.