Today has been very hard on me as controller. I can easily see L-1107 is having difficulties, and have taken measures to help her some. As her Mistress I want to grab her, hold her, and comfort her, but as her controller I cant, she has been sentenced to a period of time, and she will do it. However, I am not cruel, i have made changes to help her, and if i have to I am prepared to end this at the point I think it is becoming harmful, we are not there yet.(These daily reports have intentionally left in the Banished ones own words, so everyone will truly know who wrote it, and whos thoughts they are...)
This day had not been good at all , dont know why . be for i did realy enjoy been banished but something that i dont have words for did happen
this day has been werry bad so bad that Mistress wanted to release me but i did say NO, i dont want to be released not yet.. but iam not sure what is the best thing atm , rigth now i hate been L1107 i can use my safe word ind i will be free .. but if i do it dont think i will be so happy whit my self..
Mistress has done nothing wrong here, iam werry happy about how she has done this and she tryes her best to support me at anytime , but today i dont think i have told her or anyone how i realy feel ..I realy want out but at the same time i dont want out wird ?
My werry good friend Tina do allso have my key, we have been talking OOC about how i feel ,she wants to release me.. know she onely wants the best for me ...
This is hard on me dont knowing what i want, one thing is sure i will NERVER go bane again this is something you do 1 time and remembers for the rest of the life..